I was hoping to be able to get some updates posted. But tonight I heard of a fellow trach mom's passing. And I'm a little thrown off balance.
She just gave birth to her second child yesterday. And less than 12 hours later she suffered an amniotic fluid embolism and was not expected to live more than a few hours. Since I haven't heard that she officially passed away - I find part of me wanting to believe that somehow she pulled through. But with that event, I don't think that's a possibility.
I'm still in shock. A birth carries so much hope for the future. It just feels so wrong to have this happen. Sadly enough, I'm used to hearing about babies/children passing away. And trust me when I say I've thought about that - and fear it - from a personal standpoint more than a mother should. But a Mama passing away? Right after giving birth? I don't know. It just seems that a parent is better apt to deal with the pain of losing a child than a child losing their parent at such a young age. I suppose both situations suck beyond belief. No need to compare. It's just not what I'm used to.
I met Karin a few years ago. Well, I guess I "met" her years before that on our trach support board. Her son was trached for a few years. And her son and Harlie have the same ENT in DC. They live in Northern Virginia. One day when Harlie was having surgery, I met her and her husband in the surgical waiting room. Her son was having a bronch, and was decannulated by then if memory serves. Her son will be turning four this month.
So heartbreaking. Just can't get over it.
So, that's why I can't post an update tonight. I do have so much to tell you. I promise it's coming soon.
Please keep Karin's family in your prayers. I just heard that she passed away at 8:33pm. And I just can't stop thinking of her almost four year old who must be so confused right now.
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