Friday, August 27, 2010

A New First.

I love experiencing a new "first."  I feel that's one of the perks of having a child with Harlie's challenges.  At almost FOUR years old, I still get to be surprised at a first, and the feelings are usually indescribable.  And these "firsts" of which I speak tend to happen earlier in life (you know, like crawling, walking, talking, etc.)

So, at physical therapy last week, I was sitting on the floor and we were all talking about Harlie's stuff, when all of a sudden, Harlie walks over to me, puts her hand on my shoulder (which made me turn to face her) and she kissed me!!!

She. Kissed. Me.

That was the first time EVER that she kissed me without me asking for one.  And even when I ask her, she more often turns me down than kisses me!

And this first couldn't have been better timed!  It completely put to bed any thoughts that she was still mad at me.  That she thought I was a monster for taking her to that hospital and letting all those people do those mean things to her.  That was her way of telling me that I was forgiven and that she was totally happy.  And I felt ON TOP OF THE WORLD!!!!

MY daughter - my daughter who was had 15 major surgeries - who has been under anesthesia more than 30 times - who finds walking up the stairs WORK - who can't talk - who doesn't run to the ice cream truck with joy on her face like all the other neighborhood kids - who has therapy 3 times a week - who doesn't understand or care for eating food of any kind, but has to anyway - who breathes through a tube - eats through a tube - can't jump in the pool like every other kid - who can't ask me "why" about anything...

IS A HAPPY LITTLE GIRL.

Is that not the greatest thing, EVER???

It just goes to show you that being happy is a CHOICE.  It is a choice you make every day.  If you can make the most of what you have, you will be just fine.  And lately, I'm really starting to believe that she will be just fine.  Just fine.  And that's a first for me, too!

Thanks!
Christy

14 comments:

Donna said...

Awesome post Christy...I can't imagine the joy that brought you!!

Janis @ Sneak Peek At Me said...

Sweet!! So happy for both you & Harlie!! xoxo

Ann said...

That's awesome Christy. It's amazing how happy our kids can be despite everything. And really, at the end of the day all that really matters is that they are happy. If you read my "Blog Thought" titled "Jack's Perspective", I talk about the same thing - happiness.

Have a great day Christy. You and Harlie just made mine :)

Grandma said...

You brought tears to my eyes...what a kiss can do! Harlie will be fine...she has all of us...what more can she want. Grandmas and Grandpas and brothers and friends and the greatest mom and dad.

Just Diane said...

Tears for me here too!! That is awesome, Christy! Really awesome.

Heather said...

best one I have read in a long time! thanks for the inspiration.

Sue Mitchell said...

Bless her heart, she made your day, I do believe! What an inspiration she is to a lot of people. Thanks for sharing such an uplifting post.

B-Mama said...

Awesome first. Love it. I can just see you beaming in response... And what an amazing little, happy girl you have. It makes me happy knowing she's happy.

Anonymous said...

What a wonderful post. Kids are such wonderful little amazing beings. They always know when to give you what you need the most. Love to all of you. Ron and Sue

Susan said...

That IS the greatest thing EVER! It sounds like she was listening to your conversation and wanted to reassure you. That is huge on so many levels. I too play that game with Ainsley, "Give mommy a kiss." but it's not the same. To have Harlie walk across the room specifically for the purpose of giving you a kiss. Well....it brings a happy tear to my eye.

Kim said...

Your best. Post. Ever. So beautiful.

Tanya said...

What a wonderful post :-)

Robin said...

Just precious! :)

Annie@A View On Design said...

hi christy, you have your hands full, what mum doesn't!!! What a gorgeous family, and i just wanted to say my 3yo DD is autistic, she doesn't talk either. The wiring just didn't happen that way, but she still gets to tell me she loves me no matter what life throws at her too, in her way. Your DD's kiss was her talking! You are going to have one of the most enviable full lives possible for a mum, trust me, because we look for this little drops of gold, most take them for granted! xxx