Well, it's been like eight months since my last blog post. I started this post back in February. I think I'll just start with what I wrote then and go from there..
February, 2024, Fontan Associated Liver Disease (FALD)
Hi. Harlie had her appointment with the hepatologist (liver doctor) on February 16th. I really felt like a fish out of water there. Since kids typically don't have liver issues, there really aren't many pediatric hepatologists out there. So, we had to see an adult doctor, who sees all adults. Well, except for Harlie, of course. We definitely got some stares and I'm sure people were wondering why the hell a little girl was seeing a liver doctor. She definitely does not look her age.
We saw a fellow or resident first (I can't remember and it really doesn't matter in this situation). He did the fibroscan (ultrasound) of her liver. Before he did it, he said that if the scan comes back that it is soft (which is good) then great. But if it comes back that it is hard (which is bad) there could be two reasons. One reason is that it is in some stage of cirrhosis. Another reason is that is "just" full of blood. So, if you think of a water balloon - the more water it has in it, the harder it feels. This is said to make one feel better, I suppose. But, I think the fact is that the liver should not be so full of blood that it is hard. I also think that in Harlie's case (a Fontan patient) that the liver being full of blood all the time is what causes the cirrhosis. So, again, I don't feel any comfort.
Anyway, he did the ultrasound and then just left the room. I figured then that the scan wasn't good. I guess technically, he's not allowed to talk about it either way. But, I got the impression he didn't want to be there anymore. Ha, you and me both, buddy! He returned with the doctor. He was nice. But I definitely got the impression that they don't normally see teenagers in that practice. It just feels weird - and tiring - to always be cutting our own path vs. walking on a nice, established sidewalk.
He said that if he just looked at her ultrasound/scan, then it would tell him that she has cirrhosis. Since it could be that it is "just" full of blood, he can't say with certainty. The only way to tell exactly is to do a liver biopsy, which is invasive and unnecessary at this time. He said if she were being evaluated for a heart transplant, for example, then they would want to know exactly how her liver was, so a biopsy would be necessary then. Luckily, we aren't there - yet.
He said he wanted to get some blood work and he would be able to see how her liver is functioning. There's also a MELD score, which measures kidney function, liver function, blood clotting time and sodium level. So, you take all that information together to get a picture of how her liver is doing. Clearly, he didn't have all that information at the time, so we couldn't go over everything in person, which is a shame. He said she needs to be seen every six months. This sounds rather aggressive for something you really can't do anything about.
Later that afternoon I received a bunch of notifications that information was available in her portal. So, I went and looked. Her fibroscan came back as Fibrosis = F4. I, of course, had to Google it...
Ranges from stage F0 (no liver fibrosis) to F4 (liver cirrhosis). Stage F4 is also called liver cirrhosis, the final stage of progressive liver fibrosis.
Damn.
Luckily, her bloodwork all came back okay. Her MELD score is low, so that's great. She does have blood clotting issues and that's why she's had to see a hematologist. We've never really understood that - but maybe her liver is causing that issue. I'll have to ask when we see her hematologist again.
I will admit that when I first saw the F4, it was pretty upsetting. It took me days/weeks to process it. Okay, fine, I'm still processing it. I mean, how do you manage that in your brain? She's only 17. But, I have to try to "ignore" that and focus on the MELD score and her other labs. As long as those are good, I guess that has to be good enough. Ugh, the games I have to play in my mind to make life be okay.
Her liver just feels like a ticking time bomb. I mean, really, it is only a matter of time till her labs begin to be affected. Then what? What will that look like?
It is the same situation with her pacemaker. It is only a matter of time till her pacemaker gives out and needs to be fully replaced (not a simple surgery). It is also the same situation as her TMJ infection. It is only a matter of time before the antibiotics will not be able to fight off the infection and she'll need her left TMJ replaced. If I'm being brutally honest, it is the same situation as her heart. Eventually that will give out, too, and we'll be facing a heart transplant. As one doctor told me, sometimes the hearts can outlive the liver. Hard to say what will happen and when.
Wow, I feel like this took a dark turn. But, it is our reality - whether I talk about it or not. I have been packing these fears away for many years. I remember when we met with Harlie's heart surgeon after her DKS surgery (her 3rd open heart surgery). He was originally planning on doing her DKS and Fontan operations at the same time. He changed his mind and decided to only do the DKS. I remember that Tom and I were pretty bummed because we didn't want to still have another major open heart surgery looming ahead. After the DKS, he told us that he never could have done both surgeries at the same time. He said she has "the world's worst scarring" and it took him forever to get through it. This meant she would be on the bypass machine too long - so he wouldn't have had time to do the Fontan, even if he planned or wanted to. He also told us that her heart would likely run out of gas in her late teens/early adulthood. At age three, that sounded so far away. At almost 18, that feels like right now.
November, 2024
So, that's what I started eight months ago. Since then, she's seen a liver doctor two more times and turned 18. On August 30, she saw the same doctor for her six month follow up. Sometimes going to appointments wear me out. On this particular day, I knew we were going to the adult facility. So, I tried extra hard to give myself extra time for parking. That parking garage is terrible and I hate the elevator so, so much. There are two relatively small elevators and there are usually so many people in them that it can take several tries before we can get on an elevator with Harlie's chair. As I was about to pass the main entrance of the hospital, I was thinking about that and saw the valet line. I knew the elevator to get to her doctor was right near that entrance and in the last 18 years, I have NEVER used the valet parking. So, I decided to do it this time. I got in line and watched the guys work the line. OMG, so slow. He finally got to me and I asked him how much it cost, I think he said $5. But cash only. I didn't have any cash. Ugh. So, I got out of the line and headed to the dreaded parking garage. I drove through the entire garage and there was not a single spot to park. In one level, we were all stuck for five whole minutes. At this point, we were going to be late for our appointment. Not feeling like I had much of a choice, I returned to the valet line. I was thinking I would go get cash back from a purchase. As we were headed to her appointment I realized I didn't even have my debit card. So, I really had no way to get cash. Well, damn. This worried me for the rest of the appointment...
Anyway, the doctor ordered a vascular ultrasound two weeks in advance. So, when we were there he told us that her ultrasound showed that there's no liver cancer. Apparently, patients who have FALD are at an increased risk of liver cancer, so that vascular ultrasound was to check for liver cancer. I'm kinda glad I didn't know that. He also mentioned that we might want to switch to a different doctor. Back in the spring of 2024 VCU hired a pediatric hepatologist and he has been focused on research, but is supposed to start seeing patients soon. Other than that info, nothing else changed medically speaking since February. So, that's good. I made a note to see if that new doctor was available for her next appointment in six months.
Then, we headed back to valet to get the car. Ugh. I went up to the lady with my ticket and said, "Um, I think I have a problem." She said, "There are no problems." Ha! I wish! Anyway, I told her that I was so sorry, but I had no cash and no debit card. She said, "Well, there's no way you would've known that our credit card machine is broken, so today is no charge!" She was so nice! What a relief! Tom made fun of me because I was so worried about not being able to pay. Still had to wait over 30 minutes for my car to arrive, but you take the good with the bad and overall, I was happy. Super hungry (our appointment was 10:25 and by the time we got out of there it was well past 1pm!), but glad to be able to just load her chair in the car and go.
Just a few weeks later I received a call from a scheduler at VCU. She said that Dr. Karpen wanted to see Harlie and he was available October 2nd. Wow. That's kinda crazy. I read his bio, he seems impressive and I feel like we are lucky to get a pediatric hepatologist here in Richmond! I hope her insurance is okay with her seeing another liver doctor just over a month later. But, super convenient to have a doctor call me to schedule an appointment! I wish they were all like that! Haha! Bonus, too, he was going to see us at the Children's Pavilion - which is SO much better than going to the adult facility! No more parking worries! Woohoo! It must sound crazy how the "little things" like parking or elevators stress me out so much. But, that's just the way it is.
When he came in to see us he said that we were his first patients at CHOR! Obviously not his first ever, of course. He was great and I really liked him. He ordered more labs and we spent a good amount of time letting him get to know her medical history and him explaining some stuff about liver disease.
Honestly, we don't know anything more than she's at a much higher risk for FALD and liver cancer. Not only is she a Fontan, but she lived with really high pulmonary pressures for most of her life, which is not good for the liver. If I remember correctly, he doesn't think the fibroscans give accurate information. So, I'm just going to put that F4 rating out of my mind. He also has a better follow up plan - one year! So, hopefully, he'll still be at VCU next year and we'll get to see him again.
That's it for her liver update. Overall, I feel better about it than I did in February. It is so easy for me to think about all the bad medical "luck" she's had over the last 18 years and immediately go to the worst places in my head. I have to work really hard to try and quiet those voices/fears and get myself in a better, less worried place. Until next time, of course. Then I get to do it all over again.
Since it has been so long, I have a lot more I could share. But, I won't do it in this post. Hopefully, I'll get to work on my next post soon.
As always, thank you for caring about our girl!
Much love,
Christy xo