tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4834405754301414360.post8552252115996244481..comments2024-02-23T05:25:46.409-05:00Comments on Life Since Harlie: The eve of the first day of school.Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158503749591171395noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4834405754301414360.post-2432071000496067832014-09-03T01:35:51.193-04:002014-09-03T01:35:51.193-04:00Ahhh, a great and heartfelt post. I've missed ...Ahhh, a great and heartfelt post. I've missed you Christy and missed hearing about the Holton going-ons. I hear you. As always it's a sucky place when you feel like you should be grateful, for what they can do when there is so much that they can't, when in reality it takes effort to feel it. I think "this life" is all about walking that line and reminding ourselves as often as we can to get back to a place where we can truly feel grateful and it doesn't feel fake. IMO nobody feels grateful all the time. No matter how blessed they really are. <br /><br />I LOVED the moments with Rooney, bike riding, the funny stories, how her imagination has blossomed and she's playing dollies...and it's so awesome that she's talking so much. I used to be translator for my brother too, BTW. It's a kid thing, I guess. Definitely not you. So many times a day I wish Ainsley could tell us what's on her mind. But I also know as soon as she starts saying more words I'll want sentences. As soon as she takes her first steps I'll be eager to see her run. KWIM? That being said I'm sure I'd be very sad if Ainsley wasn't going back to school especially for health reasons. Truthfully though I still am a still a little sad. Sad that she had to bring all these supplies that she can't use. Sad that she doesn't fit in in either classroom. That she had to go off in a wheelchair yet again. That my back to school prep involves safety plans and adjustments for nurses vs. aides instead of just finding the items on the lists. Then again, when she got home and the nurse debriefed me. And again when we sat at the dinner table and she couldn't tell us anything about her first day of school like her brother and sister. It's all perspective.<br /><br />I hope Mr. Cooper has an awesome time in Kindergarten. And that all your kids have an awesome year. I know Harlie is going to continue to thrive at home. Allow yourself to feel sad, but know it's the right thing, like you do. Love you. XOXOXO.Susanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16092188894818322564noreply@blogger.com